Looking over my last post, I had a few thoughts.
One being "wow, that was vague." The second being, "was I stoned when I wrote that?"
but of course I wasn't. I don't do that kind of stuff. That's all regarding that.
So for the first time in awhile, I am absolutely broke monetarily speaking, while waiting for my first paycheck from my new job. But that's alright. I'll survive. Although it can be slightly frustrating.
Money was my motivation for staying at my last job for so long, and looking back I can definitely say that money is a horrible reason to keep a job, at least when it comes to where I'm at in my life. As far as my new job is concerned: I work at a frozen yogurt shop called Yagoot (similar to Pinkberry on the west coast). And even though I'm being paid a little more than half of what I was at my old job, and working 10 hours less a week, I can still say that I love my new job. For one, I was already friends with a couple people that I work with, and even though I'm a newbie, all the people I've met at the Rookwood store have been awesome to me.
On another note, I've pretty much decided that I'm going to sell my PS3 and games. For one thing, they are a distraction and a waste of time. I want to focus on growing my photography skills. Secondly, it's worth $500 with the games. That's possibly a new lens. Or lighting. Or a new external hard drive to store pics on (my other 2 are almost full). You get the picture (pun may or may not be intended). I've already been asked to do 2 photo shoots, which is amazing considering I don't (purposefully) advertise myself at all.
I plan on writing a post about the Mexico trip soon, when I have time. It's too much to type out in just a few minutes. So that will hopefully come soon.
Well, anyway, here goes nothing.... or something....
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Hate. Crime. Poverty. Ignorance. Liberals. Conservatives. (those last 2 are sad yet true jokes) The government. Your boss. The status quo. Et cetera, et cetera
There are an infinite number of things people can find themselves working, standing, and/or going against. Yet one will never find themselves (successfully) going against time.
Imagine, if you will, a river. Its current is steady, unchanging, and consistent all the way across. This river is time.
Now imagine you are on a boat. Whatever kind of boat you want. The only catch being that the boat has no engine, paddles, or oars.
Because, as you should be well aware, as much as you would like to, you can't go back in time, or speed time up, or slow it down. All you can do is go forward, at the speed of the current.
That boat, is your life, drifting ever forward... eventually leading into the ocean of eternity.
The question is, what will you do in the meantime?
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So I was fired from my job a week or so ago, a month earlier than I was expecting. Which is fine with me. May be a bit more of a challenge financially than I was expecting, but hey, that's ok. I've decided not to worry about finding a job until I get back from Mexico in August.
In other news, my friends Hannah & Ben were married last Friday. I got to see a lot of people I hadn't seen for awhile, and I made a new friend. Her name is Michaela. She is/was one of Hannah's best friends/bridesmaids. That's all I have to say about that... for now. Also, July 26th, 5 days before the Mexico trip, I, along with 20 or so other people, will be going skydiving up in Middletown, Ohio. Yay!
That's all for now.
May you rest in His presence
Grace and Peace
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Life. That is what I want. Life. More specifically life following Jesus with total faith and abandon.
It's a lot harder than it seems.
Parents say that college and a career are essential in life, even if it's something you hate. As long as it makes good money. The "American Dream" some would call it. "That's just the way it is. That's life."
Good ol' religious folk say you have to know proper theology and doctrine, and don't get me wrong, that's not necessarily bad, but so many people seem content to do just that and only that. Sure, you can know doctrine and theology, old and new, but what good does it do if you just KNOW it and don't do anything with it, or worse, use it as a tool of hatred, just as the Pharisees.
Politicians say you have to focus on this issue or another, pick one side or another. Which one is it? Left, right, republican, democrat, abortion, gay marriage, the environment? What if you care about issues on both sides? What if things aren't as black and white as they seem?
The past year I've been working a job I absolutely hate. My goal was to buy a car and pay it off, something that has been completed for awhile now, but I'm still there... because of the money. Most people would say that's a good enough reason, but I believe there is more to life than that. I refuse to believe that just because a majority of people say that that's just the way life is, that it has to be that way.
The last couple of months I've been saying to God, "Lord just tell me what to do, show me what to do, because I'm slowly dying here." A couple of weeks ago, He answered. A friend asked me to go on a mission trip to Mexico with a few other people. Now, if you has asked me a year ago to go on a plane, or a mission trip, I would have said "thanks, but no thanks." This time, I said yes instantly. I didn't think about it, I just said yes. In order to go, however, I have to quit my job, which I am perfectly fine with. Yes, it's a risk. Yes, it was a quick decision. So things go with God sometimes.
I heard a sermon a few weeks ago that really caught my attention. In it, a speaker named Jay Pathak, said something along the lines of "you'll know you're going the way you're supposed to go, because you'll face incredible resistance." Because why would the enemy bother with someone who isn't doing anything to hurt him? I know I answered correctly because resistance has come. I have seemed to face temptation more this last couple of weeks than I have in awhile. Temptation, worry. So many thoughts began to rush through my head after I committed to the trip. What if the plane crashes? What if I get shot in Mexico? What if grandma gets mad at me or can't afford her house anymore? What will I do about money? And then as quickly as it came, it went away. It wasn't that those thoughts went away exactly, but more that the Lord just said "I'll be there, no matter what. I will provide. Just let go." I've heard this said plenty of times in my life, but it seems like it has suddenly clicked. The fear of death, not having enough... it's all gone. Buying more records or movies or video games or what have you, even some relationships... I've let everything distract me and hold be back... and it all just left me empty.
The minute I said yes and took a leap of faith, the resistance came stronger than it had in a very long time, maybe stronger than ever, but since that moment, I have felt more alive than I ever have in my life.
So many opportunties pass us by every day and we, as a society, and even/especially as "followers" of Jesus hardly even notice anymore. Apathy, conformity, animosity, materialism, even religion in many ways, have all become "weapons of mass distraction."
I don't know what life will bring once I get back from the trip. To be honest, I'm not that worried about. I believe He will provide. All I do know is that I don't want to sit still anymore. I don't want to stay here in my comfortable house being bored. I want to be out there, going wherever He leads me, into whatever circumstances He leads me, trusting in Him, and becoming closer to Him and those brothers and sisters He has put into my life to encourage me and others around me... even if it costs me my life (figuratively or literally).
=)
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Writing to save my life (it's a book I own). I'm not going to say it's that extreme, but I am writing to save myself from going insane. I have to let my thoughts out somewhere, and what better way to do that than by typing them out here?
There ARE things that drive me crazy. I am not a patient person in all situations. As much as I hate to admit it, I probably get it from my mother, or my grandparents. It's funny how that goes. Most people, if they were completely honest, would have to admit that they are somehow like their parents, even if they were trying their best not to be. I'm like my mother in some ways. My mom is like my grandma in some ways. My girlfriend is like her mother in too many ways =P
Anyway, yes, I just thought I'd point that out.
Anyway, yes, I just thought I'd point that out.
Something random. I find it strange when married couples have one facebook account. I mean, I guess it's ok if it's a mutual decision, but if it's only the idea of spouse A, and spouse B just goes along with it to make spouse A happy, I feel like spouse A doesn't trust spouse B. Not necessarily true. Just my opinion.
So we have these little blocks of cedar that have been in the closet for years and I took them out tonight because they had stopped making the closet smell nice. I've just been sitting here smelling them since then. I think cedar is one of my favorite smells, along with home depot, and the smell in the air before rain, and freshly cut grass, and old books or records. Hehe. ;-)
So we have these little blocks of cedar that have been in the closet for years and I took them out tonight because they had stopped making the closet smell nice. I've just been sitting here smelling them since then. I think cedar is one of my favorite smells, along with home depot, and the smell in the air before rain, and freshly cut grass, and old books or records. Hehe. ;-)
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In all seriousness though...
Today wasn't the best day ever. It wasn't horrible or anything. Nothing crazy happened. Ashlee (my girlfriend) and I kinda had a disagreement or not really a disagreement but something. I don't really remember what it was. Regardless, grandma and I went out for a little while today but thinking about the fight or whatever didn't help.
While I was driving today, I stopped so an ambulance could pass. I was the one who rode along in the ambulance with grandpa the day he died. I was the one sitting in the ambulance as they tried to revive him but couldn't. Seeing and hearing the ambulance today brought it all back, and, for the first time, I realized that I really hate ambulances. They make me think of him and make me want to break down crying.
I miss grandpa so much. There are moments that I feel so confused and overwhelmed by life, and sometimes I just want his guidance and advice. =(
And please don't leave comment(s) saying "he's in a better place" and "let the lord guide you" and other such things. I don't need or want little cliche sayings. They might be true but they're annoying and if you can't think of something more insightful to say besides recycling old cliches, then don't say anything at all
